a person

I’m actually on my own, when I needed someone.
But that someone believe that you should handle your own issue, and walk away.
And that night, I left all alone by myself, in that cold room crying, sobbing and thinking who else I can talk to? Mom? Dad? Brother? Friends? Pets? Social media?Who?

No One.

There’s when I see myself helpless.
I’m actually solo.

人家的实现

他们总是用金钱来衡量事物，
认为家人给的红包一定要比别人的来的丰厚。
嘴说 “无所谓，一家人别那么客气。” 可是肢体行动非也。
他们会抱着厚望，尤其兄弟姐妹的，绝对不可以少过外别人。
那是什么概念，何谓心意？

wound

Maybe I shouldn't take on this path only to realize how wounded I am now.

Maybe I shouldn't believe those fantasy only to realize how cruel it actually is.

bloop

When you realize your expectations are selfish,

then you'll know whom to blame your disappointments on

break down

Always think that Im getting stronger as days goes by..

Nothing could bother me, nothing could affect me..

I tried so hard not to give a shit on things that might come in their way to weaken me..

But the more I hold down myself, the more I know that I actually care..

ni.ght

I want to sleep with you.

I dont mean to have sex.

I mean sleep. Together.

Under my blankets. In my bed.

With my hand on your chest and your arm around me.

With the window cracked, so it's chilly and we have to cuddle closer.

No talking, just sleepy, blissfully happy, silence.

Day20

I just wish I knew the truth

It wouldnt make anything better

but I would have that peace of mind

knowing that I didnt waste my time on you,

But if it is all lie that is ok too
because you have taught me a great lesson.

What if

What happens when the water runs away?

What happens when the sunlight starts to fade?

What happens when I love you comes to late?

What happens when you got no more to give?

What happens when there's nothing left to live for?

What happens when the one you love is not the one you're with?

What happens when your best is not enough?

What happens when your soul mate is already in love?

What happens when your lucky numbers wrong?

What happens when you lose someone you've always counted on?

What happens when it feels like life's just stringing you along?

How you meant to pick the pieces up?

No ones scared of flying, were just scared of crashing down

No ones scared of falling, were just scared to hit the ground

Even if your heart gets broke, you're stronger then you'll ever know

We don't need much, much of anything no

Just the hope of what tomorrow brings

Nothing last

Sometimes I cross my arms over my chest and press down real hard,

because it feels like I’m about to fall apart and I’m the only thing holding myself together

“Nothing ever last forever”