puppet

im not afraid to love..

im just afraid of not being loved back..

you want your freedom you want your privacy..

as you are happy with what your demanding..

here you go..i will give it all to you..

i admit im not liberality enough in love..

or perhaps i should learn on it..

i really wish girl dont own the jealousy..

sometimes i wish im blind or deaf or whatever..

or take away my feeling my emotions..

i just dont want to feel myself so unbearable..

your judge

i dont care how people label me..

love me or hate me..go ahead..

i noe we got our own perception in judging things..

one thing i do care is how u think i am..

i care coz i value this relationship precious..

i dont noe what would u label me..

i cant change what u thought about me..

but one thing i want u to noe..

i might look tough..i might pretend like i dont care..

but im still a girl..a broken girl who need attention and care..

i dont noe am i wrong for demanding those missing part in my life..

but ur reaction tell everything..

its far more clear than the answer..

133th post

can't stop for not to go through the emoness nor moody..

i'm losing my mind for being such a thinker..

my mind would comes out lot of thought no matter it was positive or negative..

it just right there could make me tearful somemore unbearable.

i'm exactly emo in every post..

i put myself out there so much and keep on distressed..

its weighing me for having all these..

i need a relief..

dont care

do whatever you want..
never think about me..
dont try to hit me..
i’ll be smiling the happiest smile..
my feelings was unreasonable because you just dont care!

i was nothing compare to yourself..
just do as you wish..
i will be fine in some others way..

life unpredictable

life is so unpredictable..

no matter how much insurances i bought..

my life was still aint worth that value..

mine was pricelessly precious..

every next second was a hazy..

i cant see what happen next..

appreciate and grateful with what i have now..

i shall live my life to the fullest..

she is the key

she is the most cheerful girl i have seen..

with her i can laugh my lung out anytime anywhere..

there seems to be no worries when i live with her..

almost sampat everyday..

most of our memories built since the 1st day i was studied in penang..

4 of us was just like sisters..

we talk we share we laugh together..

for a period we never apart in our daily life..

for now..the angel in our heart was return to the god side..

i wish u were fine there..

really hope we still have more and more memories together..

but i just aint have this chance anymore..

i miss you my dear friend..

shall lock u in the deepest part in my mind..

those memories will never be forget coz u was the key of us..

p/s: we miss u a lots..r.i.p..