Escape

sleepless thought I

2012-01-11T04:46:00.001+08:00

Love is invaluable, it dont cost a thing.

dont think of whose love is more precious for the sacrifices make, it is incomparable.

love workout with 2 hearts, what you treat will comes in return.

if you really did, the one who receive will feel it involuntary.

imiss'em

2011-10-28T16:39:00.006+08:00

These days made me realize how much I really miss my twins =(

and my triplets =(

dejected

2011-10-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

Im just so utterly confused about everything that i dont even know what to do next.

i hate when im indecisive, because then i feel like i don’t know who i am because i don’t know what i want.

Indecisive

2011-10-19T20:28:00.006+08:00

Thinking about the future is something that has always frightened me.

perhaps it is one of the reasons why i've always been so drawn to procrastination, putting things off, and telling myself that i will do them later.

i have gone so far as to make it a daily habit; to avoid the idea of the future as much as i possibly could.

it may just be a revelation that i’ve had lately, especially with the direction that my life has been taking during these past 3 years,

but i’ve decided that i cant avoid the future forever.

i have to start somewhere, finally deciding on what i need and where i want to go.

i have a strong feeling that ill have a lot of very important decisions to make during the next few months.

live life

2011-08-26T13:07:00.003+08:00

you can say what you want..

but i want to live moment to moment..

our brains are always regretting and guiding us one way because of the past..

our past mistakes, our past choices, and on and on..

our brains are always looking towards the future..

the future that holds so much promise, and hope, and a better tomorrow..

but our bodies are stuck in the now, the N-O-fucking-W..

no matter how much our minds wander, don’t matter..

that’s why i’m going to try to coincide my mind with the body, and live moment to moment

i’m not going to disregard the consequences, past mistakes…

but i’m going to just live life better by fully enjoying the moment i have.

let it

2011-08-23T23:43:00.001+08:00

tomorrow might heal you nothing when you just use most time of your today to think about yesterday.

well, you gotta know that you’re the only person who write your own story,

don’t let destiny or whatsoever take control of your life,

you’re the one who control them.

post 157

2011-08-15T16:28:00.000+08:00

You’ll miss it after a while.

it’s been 2weeks since i graduated, and im kinda jealous of you guys who going to college.

mainly just for being able to get out of the house, and be with friends :(

so, appreciate that you’re in college.

pretty much, once you get out, life starts for you, and it’s not easy.

Mr.W

2011-07-09T14:01:00.004+08:00

He is my new love. haha. <3

junio stuff

2011-06-25T11:47:00.002+08:00

Randomly remembering good times and smiling like an idiot..

keep your hopes high and never let your life pass you by.

loves ♥

2ne1

2011-06-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

legally 21st and its a next stage of life.

move on girl, move on.

you deserve nothing but the best.

my family and babes love me more than you do..

and i love them more than they could, even than myself..

you guys are the best i ever had..

xoxo

ain't you

2011-05-20T10:43:00.002+08:00

I really wonder why people suddenly change after they get what they wanted.

one day they are sweet, the next day, they are not.

one day they are here, the next day they are not.

one day you are important them, the next day you are worthless.

one day they say they love you, the next day they don't care bout you.

That's how ironic things and people can be.

pretty shits, pretty lies, pretty fucked up.

but it's still your choice.

cause you choose to get Hurt.

when you choose to be in Love.

serious?

2011-05-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

And it’s surprising how someone's words or attitude can completely change our mood..

what am I suppossed to do when everything start falling apart?

should I quickly pick up all the pieces and try to fix the whole thing up while it keeps falling..

or should I just silently watch how the whole thing is falling apart

and then just sweep all the pieces and throw them in garbage bag?

I want to be strong but I’m full of broken thoughts I cant repair,

but now I can just only cry on my pillow wishing a better tomorrow cause I'm not still ready to leave,

I’m not yet hurt enough to quit this battle..

post 151

2011-03-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

我不会受伤，不会因为这点事受伤

听说钻石是不会受伤的

她很坚固，很美丽，很闪耀

但是她也很坚强所以不会受伤

我也想要有一颗像钻石般的心

这样就不会受伤了

fact

2011-03-08T22:36:00.001+08:00

I admit,

i really miss how things used to be.

but i can also admit,

that i've accepted the fact that things changed.

pierced heart

2011-03-07T13:04:00.003+08:00

there are some people say,

"never give up on anybody.

miracles happen everyday."

perhaps..i really have to move on this time.

somehow its been a moment ever since the day..

but i never really lose any one piece of my belief and faith on it still..

by the same time..this broken heart never seems to be recover..

it still aching, still weeping like fresh every time those lancinating memories flash back..

i miss you. wonder if u miss me so?

label us

2011-02-14T23:32:00.001+08:00

maybe some labels are best left in the closet..

maybe when we label people,

we forget to look past the label to the person.

and i hope us, could dressed head to toe in love..

and that's the one label..

...that never goes out of style.

ever ours

2011-02-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

my thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved..

i can live only with you or not at all..

be calm my life my all..

only by calm consideration of our existence

can we achive our purpose to live together..

continue to love me..

never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved (me).

ever thine ever mine ever ours.

2011

2011-01-01T02:05:00.001+08:00

The trees will keep growing

even after you're gone,

and I need to see this new world

with my brand new eyes.

A brand new start..

Me. Cecilia.

Still

2010-11-11T01:25:00.008+08:00

Im taking this risk so that you realize what is lacking

and hopefully we are able to resume this relationship longer.

Not everything happens in a way you've expected and what you hope for.

suffering heartbreaks become something not in common.

reiteration

2010-10-30T01:35:00.002+08:00

You just planted a doubt in my head..and i guess there is no turning back..

Incomplete melody

2010-10-15T12:46:00.005+08:00

"缺憾" 也是一种美好, 只是看你用什么角度去对待.

Pain.Breathing

2010-09-28T18:54:00.004+08:00

Tears is a reminder..

remind me of, that i love you so much..

grasp

2010-09-26T14:31:00.004+08:00

Sometimes when life goes downhill and things get crazy..

it freak me out and make me feel like we're losing the grip on something's that really important..

so i try really hard to hold on tight to whatever we are losing, and yet i hold on a little too hard..

game over?

2010-09-25T21:15:00.002+08:00

Regrets are a waste of time.

they are the past that crippling you in present.

so dont ask question if you're not ready to hear the answer.

happy never after

2010-09-16T05:34:00.004+08:00

If someone ask me are u happy?

I will hesitate and ask myself back..am I happy?

jalessy

2010-08-25T17:57:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry sometimes i get a little jealous,

thinking that someone else could make you happier than i could..

i guess it's my insecurities acting up..

because i noe that im not the prettiest,smartest or most fun and exciting girl..

but i do noe that no matter how hard and long u look..

you'll Never find somebody that Loves you like I do..

If

2010-08-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

If you really love somebody, sacrifices would Never Ever be a burden.

puppet

2010-07-27T13:04:00.004+08:00

im not afraid to love..

im just afraid of not being loved back..

you want your freedom you want your privacy..

as you are happy with what your demanding..

here you go..i will give it all to you..

i admit im not liberality enough in love..

or perhaps i should learn on it..

i really wish girl dont own the jealousy..

sometimes i wish im blind or deaf or whatever..

or take away my feeling my emotions..

i just dont want to feel myself so unbearable..

your judge

2010-07-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

i dont care how people label me..

love me or hate me..go ahead..

i noe we got our own perception in judging things..

one thing i do care is how u think i am..

i care coz i value this relationship precious..

i dont noe what would u label me..

i cant change what u thought about me..

but one thing i want u to noe..

i might look tough..i might pretend like i dont care..

but im still a girl..a broken girl who need attention and care..

i dont noe am i wrong for demanding those missing part in my life..

but ur reaction tell everything..

its far more clear than the answer..

133th post

2010-07-26T14:22:00.001+08:00

can't stop for not to go through the emoness nor moody..

i'm losing my mind for being such a thinker..

my mind would comes out lot of thought no matter it was positive or negative..

it just right there could make me tearful somemore unbearable.

i'm exactly emo in every post..

i put myself out there so much and keep on distressed..

its weighing me for having all these..

i need a relief..

dont care

2010-07-25T13:27:00.003+08:00

do whatever you want..
never think about me..
dont try to hit me..
i’ll be smiling the happiest smile..
my feelings was unreasonable because you just dont care!

i was nothing compare to yourself..
just do as you wish..
i will be fine in some others way..

life unpredictable

2010-07-18T12:47:00.004+08:00

life is so unpredictable..

no matter how much insurances i bought..

my life was still aint worth that value..

mine was pricelessly precious..

every next second was a hazy..

i cant see what happen next..

appreciate and grateful with what i have now..

i shall live my life to the fullest..

she is the key

2010-07-08T12:21:00.000+08:00

she is the most cheerful girl i have seen..

with her i can laugh my lung out anytime anywhere..

there seems to be no worries when i live with her..

almost sampat everyday..

most of our memories built since the 1st day i was studied in penang..

4 of us was just like sisters..

we talk we share we laugh together..

for a period we never apart in our daily life..

for now..the angel in our heart was return to the god side..

i wish u were fine there..

really hope we still have more and more memories together..

but i just aint have this chance anymore..

i miss you my dear friend..

shall lock u in the deepest part in my mind..

those memories will never be forget coz u was the key of us..

p/s: we miss u a lots..r.i.p..

can i?

2010-06-26T20:44:00.005+08:00

i know its funny to have this thought..

but do you ever think before how if your love one no longer here in this world one day?

can you take that? can you move on? can you survive?

i do think of it before..for me i seriously cant take it perhaps i wish i could tag along..

its funny rite? you live over a decade without him..

but with only that short period..u declare that you cant live without him..

and this tell me that how strong the power of love is..

so peoples..appreciate your love one..

appreciate with what you have..

life is too short than what u think it is..

meet-night

2010-05-28T21:20:00.004+08:00

my babe is back..

imisshersomuch!!

happen to meet in the midnight..

sleepy but i have fun..

me and bB

those pretties

waiting

2010-05-15T18:25:00.002+08:00

it’s just no use waiting like a fool when
i know there’s nothing to wait on..

..but i’d still wait anyway.

bear with it..

2010-05-14T23:52:00.003+08:00

there's a kind of pain we can't ignore..
a level of pain that's so great that it blocks out everything else..
makes the else of the world fade away until all of us can't think about whether how much we hurt..
how we manage our pain is up to us..
pain, we anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it..
and for some of us..
the best way to manage the pain is to push through it..

my fate

2010-05-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just hate to be the eldest child in this family..

i always blaming why am i the one..?

and im so sick with things that been happened again and again..

enlightened me

2010-04-23T01:09:00.003+08:00

if today is the end of the world..

nothing is important anymore right..?

so my problems will just turn into zero..

wont care on what had happened..

i just want myself to be happy..

your truth

2010-04-17T11:53:00.002+08:00

i reject your reality and substitute it for my own..

i accept reality and dare not question it..

if i would ask, will you answer me frankly?

April fools

2010-04-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

i tot i wont get prank anymore

coz i told myself i gotta beware on what they say to me..

coz its April fools..

and yet i fall in the trap once again..

lizard really make me act awkward..

special thanks to melliana and fishlong..

things change

2010-03-25T01:39:00.004+08:00

things doesnt goes like what it used to be lately..

this feeling doesnt feel right to me at all..

izit everythings used to be change?

frankly, im disappointed..

disappointed on what i did..

am i expect too much?Obviously.

i wish i could be optimist..

but i couldnt in this situation..

please show me some cares..i seriously need it..

and i need you..

comprehending

2010-03-11T16:40:00.004+08:00

i felt sorry and im guilty about it..
it's all totally my fault..
i have felt bad about what happened..
i knew im a mess,ruined everythings up..
frankly,im the one most dont want to see all this happen.I swear..
thanks for being honest and telling me the truth of ur feelings..
tears it doesnt matter..try my best to be a better one..=)

tolerancy

2010-02-11T11:49:00.005+08:00

im not blaming you and please stop apologize to me..

you know i dont wan nothing but you..

im not demanding for you to be here with me..

perhaps, a respond to me which could make me feel safe and comfort is that hard?

i just want you to be there when i need you and its ok if you cant make it..

these had ruined my day and im really sick of all these..

my voice

2010-02-09T20:00:00.001+08:00

this feeling is awesomely suck..
been abandoned by him again..
said u will always be by my side but where are you when i need you?
ur words just like a million knife that strike straight to my heart..
you never know how hurt is that to me especially when its from ur words..
you should noe that its all because of you..
but you never seems to care and it become my fault to have this mood in turn..
can you please take a few second to figure out what is on my mind? is that hard?
i found this is much more cruel to me than pretending..

shouldnt be so real coz no one will actually care about it..
depression why are you so loyal to me?

searching on going

2010-02-07T00:27:00.004+08:00

im started to regret..

i've been seacrhing all around but end up disappointed..

i shouldnt hesitate at the 1st time..

can i turn back the time?

i wish i could..

miracle please happen on me..

i freaking need it but im tired..

happy is wanted

2010-01-31T22:09:00.006+08:00

between the lies and jokes..

which is the best to make things looks beautiful..?
im having a hard time to take one of it..
i smile like nothings wrong, but the paths i gone through no one will know perhaps..
saying "im fine" is always a common lies..
i really fed up of pretending myself..
how i wish i could tell "im not fine" boldly..
always wanted be a tough one or something like cold blooded being more than a weak nor fragile one..
always blaming myself wasn’t done perfectly in life..
in fact, i was a very extreme person..
have my days happy is my motto..

011110

2010-01-11T16:35:00.001+08:00

011110.

January 11, 2010.

today’s date is a palindrome..

do something reverse-forward..

wear something reversible..

Uhh..

change

2010-01-10T10:34:00.007+08:00

afterall..it just an empty shell..
goin to be 20 soon..
realise actually im not that grown..
dunno a single shit basic things in life..

been so long for living but i got learn nothing at all..
im a... nit say it all..
i would like to thanks to whoever willing to grab a knife and stab into me but without pain..

or can i ask for doomsday by tomorrow?

this feeling is totally unpleasant to me..

i never been fear this much..NEVER..
thought i can face everything well as it is a problem that is mean to solve..
but no matter how strong i think i am..
there always will be a bane that she is totally can help in it..

then only knew actually i was a failure..

not that strong but weak indeed..
im so lost now, frankly..been trembling for wondering..

dont wish things ruin up coz of me myself.. it aint worth..
sometimes i just dont know why im that chump..
i got many things to tell from my inner feeling..
i wish i could be an outspoken one..
so that it wont accumulate that much..
i dare to say i never fail my telepathy..

but now i lost the ability for a sudden..

and it cost me the time to figure out hard..

i hope it is no late to learn the ways of the world..

wait me kays, as im on my way to be a better girl..

a more intelligent sensible one..

thanks you..because of you..

i begin to know the world..

inside the nothing

2010-01-10T02:50:00.007+08:00

i wonder why things will change in 180 degree in a second..
you take away my emotion..
you have no idea how deep of sadness had engulf me now..
but one trouble follows another, the burden is kind of insane stress..
my expression was blank, it did mean something to me..
i had no idea with your pm, i could feel something inside..
i hope that wasn't the most worst of it..it's gonna be okay..
try to comfort my mind my heart my emotion whatever that i used to be..
maybe, it wont be easy..
in fact it would be down right miserable to give up the hallucinations and try to be grown up..
the mood became more unstable..
it had affected the whole veins in the body included the words i use to speak..
he seem to be the tune of my thought now..controlled my every single cells..
the whole body froze into place as i realized how much alert of the thoughts..
maybe love shouldn't be such hard work..

knowing is better than wondering, waking is better than sleeping..

you know what..i never stop missing you as im still breathing..

im not

2010-01-02T15:45:00.013+08:00

i dont know..

no matter was it that night things or what i have read..

it just a simply harsh to me..
i don't know whether am i too sensitive or what..

but this time was different..i felt i was a victim..

and i can feel my heart had been cut into half..

frankly, i care what they write what they say..

im saying that i was fine, but deep inside my tears i'll drown..
i never thought i was so worthless to them..
i can don't care what they say..

but i just can't stop care what you are thinking about me..

retrospection

2010-01-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

i just realized something..

i screwed up things recently..
not to share..

not to expose the sadness..
dumb for tonight..

a new decade

2009-12-31T16:12:00.005+08:00

oh my, we left a decade in just a blink!
its the end of year 2009..
there's lot of things up and down been happened along the year..
i had learned a lot from the down part of the life..

learning to be tougher,intelligent,independent whatever would make me changed to a better person..
don't blame about the past,because that's life..
bye 2009 and thanks for growing me..

we will never meet in future..

so take away all my sorrows kays..

i want my life to be happy along 2010..

christmas.no more.

2009-12-25T01:38:00.001+08:00

merry christmas to myself..

as santa had left me behind to be lonely..

he didnt hear my wishes this year..

how sad can it be..

i promise i'll be good good girl this coming year so that you wont forget me anymore..

feebleness

2009-12-20T13:05:00.004+08:00

it was a terrible night..

whenever i close up my eyes..

feel like there is a sharp nails hit on my heart..

my heart shrink whenever a deep breath..

am i that weak?

i cant take it easy..

i should forget bout it..its over..

but it still fresh and clear..

like its just only happen..

sitting alone in the room looking out to the window..

staring at the sky and there is no one by my side..

how i wish there is a shoulder for me to cry out loud..

tell me that everything will be just fine..

fact is you are too far away from me...

if tears could make ones pretty..

i guess i would be the prettiest one..

a sleepless nite with tears make my eyes looks amazingly pretty today..

but no matter what happen..

i still love you..

plaint

2009-12-20T02:30:00.001+08:00

im going to smile like nothings was wrong..

talk like everythings was perfect..
act like it's all a dream..
and pretend it's not hurting me..

she's leaving

2009-12-12T21:00:00.005+08:00

we used to be stranger..

but fate make us know each other and staying up in a room together..

1 and a half year..

memories here and there..

a good friendship have been built among us in this short period..

you are the youngest one among us..

but your role is like a mother..

always take good care of us and make sure we are in the good condition..

i still rmb how u take care of me when i get in high fever..

you change the wet towel on my forehead and measure my temperature with ur soft hand frequently to see whether come down not..

ask me wake up to have medicine and finish up the big glass of water..

buy me porridge and herbal drink as im lying on bed like a dead fish..

i noe im the one you always worry of as i dun really noe how to take care of myself..

thanks for everything u did kays..

i will never forget how good u treat me in this period..

seriously u treat me better thn my mom..hahas..

sorry for dint attend the farewell..sorry kays..

now you are leaving this room..leaving us as u r graduate..

this make me miss you so much..

coz i noe GD SHAN is no longer staying here with me..

the day when u r not here..

my daily life facing a big change..

and im so not used to it now..

nobody accompany me online till late at nite..

nobody accompany me to drink milk at the midnight..

nobody accompany me to have instant noodle for dinner..

nobody accompany me eat bread with our fav goober grape..

nobody help me to keep the cloths which is ad dry hanging outside..

nobody as me to bath as it is late..

nobody update tvxq's news to me..

nobody share with me the latest korean songs..

nobody gossip with me who is handsome and pretty..

and nobody accompany me stay in the hostel while weekends anymore..

but no matter what..

friendship never end kays..

come visit us when u r free aight..

if not i will go there to disturb u..

wish u all the best Tan Hui Shan..=)

crucial

2009-11-23T05:46:00.002+08:00

im still awake and never sleep yet at this crucial moment..

why??it simply because of rushing my final projects..

im here to write a short post while im waiting for my project to be save..sigh..

my time management was seriously crash up coz of the wrong info i get..

finished 2 poster design in 24hrs its not an easy stuff actually..

inspirations.ideas.creativities.concepts.concentrations.skills.techniques.patience.volitions.energy is needed..

more but not least..support..

anyways..i hope that this 2 poster could lead me to a B..

or perhaps at least a C..

coz i noe with last minutes works..i cant demand for an A..

this kind of mistake will never repeat again..

once is enough..

darl..good luck..

promise

2009-11-19T14:00:00.006+08:00

i might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you..

but today, i promise you that..

no matter what happens..

even the sky is falling down..

i'll promise you..

that i'll never let you go..

you and i together..

its just feel so right..

dont ever let go my hands..

even tho i bid u goodbye..

to me this world is just you..
our love has changed a bit by bit just like others..
but dont be sad..
im be right here baby..
no one in the world can replace you..
you are the only one in i'll be there for you..

just you and i..

forever and ever..

sweet suprise

2009-11-15T14:25:00.003+08:00

15nov is my darl-fish's birthday..

and we got a suprise celebration for her 19th bday at oriental last night..(dailou plan)

he invited all the jimuis to celebrate with her..

all of them bringing their bf along and nicky be my partner last nite..

so sad babyboy wasnt there..

nothing much to talk about..

all i noe is she really get suprised..

thank to me who can handle well the sudden call from darl..

if not..whole plan got spoilt..bahahahahaha..

im proud of my skill..

okays..pictures time..

p/s: happy birthday DARL..

dont so seh jiak ok..i look like a giant beside u..

and ur parking skill seriously need to improve..hehehe..

Abandoned

2009-11-01T01:10:00.003+08:00

the title tells everythings..

i seriously dont like this feeling of been abandon for the whole day..

plus u doesnt seem to care..

thats why i HATE this..

not in the mood..

bye..

signing off..

wheezingly

2009-10-27T16:05:00.007+08:00

things really doesnt going smooth lately..
been suffering from headache since saturday..
and it doesnt get well at all..i wonder whats happen in my head..=S
will go to have a check up soon..
yesterday..
i did something real embarass in college..
really really really embarass till i dunno where to put my face at all..
its ok if i called the wrong person name..
but the point is i pulled the girl's hair from the back which i tot is my friends..
n when she turn over..
OMGOSH!! totally wrong person..
sososo wrong..sia sui sial..
and just now..back from class and i wish to take a nap..
but end up i got a bad dream..
i woke up from my bed gaspingly with the heart beating so fast..
grr..im dizzy but i dont feel like wanna continue with my nap..
so sick of the bad dream..=(

tomfoolery

2009-10-24T14:24:00.004+08:00

woke up at 11am n just have cococrunch for my very 1st meal of the day..

my mind is very blank now..

cant think of any ideas for my assignmentss..

i need creative ideas n inspirations..

i need it like seriously..

wonder why it always come at the very last minute..duhh..

i guess it aint special for my today..
just another day which i used to miss him all over n over again..
mind was full of him right now..duhh..

unmanageable

2009-10-21T14:56:00.010+08:00

he is apart from me again..

i wish he will stay longer..

i miss the way he wrap his arm around me n his singing to me anytime,anywhere..

miss the way he hug me to sleep n the thorax that make me feel secure..

miss the moment when he whispered my name in the middle of the sleep..

miss his laughter n jokingly tell me how popular he is among the guys n girls..

no doubt that many peoples is obsessed with a guy like him..

and he always tell me how lucky am i who win his heart..

i read it with my eyes cleary what she wrote in her blog n starting to suspicion..

a girl like me always pretending im cool with it n i dont care..

but the fact is im still learning on it..

but no matter how strong the denials made..

its always my own perception whether to take it or not..

i will always keep the faith in you..

we knew it play a big role in this..

no one says that long distance relationship are easy..
shamelessly to admit that i started to miss him again..

sick fishy

2009-10-15T18:48:00.007+08:00

i started to miss her voice..

darl..faster get well soon k..

going to class alone doesnt feel nice at all..=(

huhu..faster get ur ass back to class..
i want to play webcam with you!!

bad muddle

2009-10-15T15:16:00.005+08:00

can anyone tell me whats going wrong with me today?

a pig who usually cant wake up by an alarm eventho the alarm is freaking loud but today my roommate's alarm really had spoilt my sleep..

today class was at 230pm..used to be wake up at 1pm been woke up early at 11am..

coz of darl having sick..so im gonna go to class myself..

walked to class early with my roommate who have class at 2pm..

things getting bad when some1 told me that todays class canceled..

wtheck!! why i dont noe about this..?

im so frustrated with it since i dont have a good sleep..

im so angry with nobody inform me bout this,mad at the lecturer who dint annouce it clearly still dint answer my call n the weather is so hot but yet still need to walk back under the hot sun..

i keep on mumble along the way home alone..

im getting mad seriously and im trying to get myself calm..

and i nearly get hit by a falling stupid dunno what fruit infront my hse..

getting moody..bye..

the gay's

2009-10-11T14:48:00.008+08:00

13th only his bday..

but he had his party yesterday becoz of me..coz i back hometown..hehe..

the bday boy

laine.jyun.me

jee.jyun.me

zming.jyun.mhao

the homemade tiramisu cake

make by suekee n laine

me n jeena

the ladies

best friend

satisfy with the nite

rushing day

2009-10-08T21:15:00.001+08:00

i treat u as my buddy..

and i guess u too rite?

i noe u since f4 when we were in the same class..

till now its been 4yrs..

and we still hang out together everynite eventho been graduated..

u r the trouble maker of all time..

but u always the one who most speak on obligation..

u treat me as a girl when the others treat me as a boy..

u r the one who always protect me in the gang..

coz im the only girl..

thats why i feel safe when u r there..

today is ur day.. party at ur hse yesterday..

me as ur fren..the very steady wan indeed..haha

go down all the way round from pg to as to attend ur birthday party and thn get back to pg again in the midnight.. although its tiring but im still happy with it..

i do enjoy that nite..hope u enjoy urs too..

19yrs old boy..

stop smoking aight..

u promised us!!

behave urself.and stop illegal stuff..

happy birthday!!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

birthday boy

in the house

lainez n i

4 pairs of sexy legs

the ladies

lun.fei.liaz

fei n i

we in the car

(laine,jiaki,sueting,jiayun,me)

the moment

-us-
laine with the cake

been destroy
-the end-

sweetdream

2009-10-03T12:33:00.002+08:00

ello..im finally awake..

i slept since last nite 7pm..

and now im revival from my 16hours sleep..cool!!

im sick now..sneeze like nobody business..

dear said that i dunno how to take good care of myself..

YES!! I AM!!

i really dunno that..that's why i need u..haha..

i ate ice-cream..i ate bak-kut-teh..i ate snack while im sick..

thn i end up like this..=="

mid term exam is on next week..or i can say 2days more..

i better study now..

aloha~

absence

2009-09-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

i miss u so much right now..

keep on doodle my sketchbook with ur name..

im so lost without ur contact..

feels weird without hearing ur voice for the whole day..

feels like everythings i did wasnt goes right..

hellow~where r u?

just wanna tell u that..

i miss you to the MAX!!

beach.bbq.

2009-09-27T18:57:00.003+08:00

last nite was kdu design's gang bbq party..

let me think who attended the party..

erm..me fish zen mell foong teng lin mang godwin gan diane phyllis..

said that the party starts at 6..but me n darl reach at 8 somethings..

haha..sorry guys..i noe u guys cant wait for my food..bahahaha..

there got so many so many foods weh..

imagine that 16 of us each brings one food..

all total got 16 food+ that nite..

fuyooh..yummy yummy..thumbs up for all of it..^^

and one thing..

i really fried those tempura mushroom myself seriously..

i had never get my ass down into the kitchen to do somethings before this 19yrs..

even in my hse i also never cook..

ok..see how lucky u guys are..

u guys was the 1st gang who taste it..

c'mon lets feel proud of it..haha..

trouble

2009-09-25T18:29:00.002+08:00

wtheck..y am i so forgetfull??

i never thought that im now in penang without my IC n license..

ARGH!!

how am i gonna hang out without them?

why i could forget to bring them along?

w-h-y??

what to do now?

CECILIA ahh..

u this idiot..

GRR~

2209's outing

2009-09-22T22:05:00.006+08:00

tired tired tired..

tired till i think i can sleep for the whole day without waking up..haha.. (always does)

i've been out for the whole noon..

me..jac..albert..

3 of us go here n there..

and alor star is really boring..

the worst part is..i planned to have a movie..but the ticket was all sold!! wth!!

again..my plan for the whole noon spoilt..

really no place to go weh..plus the weather was so hot..

hello Mr.Sun,pls control ur anger k..we very hot down here leh..=="

but i guess the outing is still not that bored with some funny photo taking..

there still a lots more..stay tune~^^

blackout

2009-09-19T00:00:00.005+08:00

grr..why is this happened to me?

why must it happened when im all alone?

im fear of dark especially when im alone and there is raining heavily come with thunder..

oh gosh..feel really helpless..

sound like im a poltroon rite?

hey pls la..everyone also have a fear in them k..

eventho im big enough..but sometimes im still scare k..

plus this time im ALONE in this BIG house..=="

lucikly i got my bro and my darlin who i can reach for their comfort..

and not to forget my sweetheart..haha..

the one and only who could cheer me up and make me laugh when im emo..

thanks god its only 1hour plus..

if not i guess i'll be mad here..

thanks ya..for those who help me to pray..hehe..

u noe who u r..

darl.dailou.sweetheart..

kamsahamnida~

mistake

2009-09-14T23:48:00.004+08:00

i HATE you UNSECURED!!

pls dont ever live inside the dictionary..

u make us moody..

u spoilt my day..

all becoz of u this bloody words..

get lost ok??

sleeplicious

2009-09-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

wanna tell u guys one really classic phrase that said by my frens-Kho Angie..

she told me this..

“我是睡到天长地久；而你是睡到天荒地老。”

before that is one more..she said..

“你简直就是睡来昏迷自己”

so funny weh..

awh..i admit that i really sleep a lots..

and thanks for the compliments..

haha..

3days trip

2009-09-08T00:45:00.003+08:00

for the past 3days..

i went to shan's hometown for a short trip..
i like their family actually..
each of them..

simple nice friendly n warm..
how i wish i could stay there longer..

n i learnt to play piano there..

now i noe to play a song fully..cool weh..(b4 that was only chorus)

n i wish i could play it in front of my love one someday..

so i better practice everyday so that i wont forget those notes..hehe..

i better continue my drawing now..

nites..

rainy

2009-09-03T00:17:00.005+08:00

why the sound of insomnia become so familiar..

silence has become ur replacement..

expecting have makes one more n more welter..

who unable to find their somebody like me?

for some reason..

i'm always learning the flavour of loneliness..

being alone is so tiring..

what kind of rain..what kind of night..

what kind of me can make u think of me more?
how big does the storm have to be..how dark does the sky have to be..

so that i'll have your care?

decadence

2009-09-01T21:24:00.003+08:00

take some tobaccos,so that it could make myself dizzy..

heartbreaker

2009-09-01T13:19:00.002+08:00

cant really smirk like i used to be everytime i look at it..

cant bear to lost anythings seriously..

seems it had become somethings precious in a part of my life..

just noe that..

illusion never comes into something real..

freak-out

2009-08-25T20:04:00.004+08:00

im so freak-out on a particular person..

i wonder what is in his mind..

what's he thinking..

i wanna read his mind..

but why i dont have this ability?

kinda hard for me to read his..

omgosh..behaviour goin odd lately..

can someone give me this ability even though just for awhile?

sleepy..

2009-08-21T08:17:00.004+08:00

and yet i couldnt wake up again even tho the lady gaga almost finish the whole "just dance"..

until my roommate yell my name..

CECILIA~~

i only realize that..zzz..

so embarass weh..

sorry roomies..=)

goodmorning guys..

im so sick of morning class sometimes..

how r u guys out there?

wish u guys have a nice day..

winks*

sexie

2009-08-19T04:40:00.004+08:00

phew..just end up the call on SKYPE..

object : hakiro

duration : 5h 56m 51s

its nice talking to him..

he is so cute weh..

cant resist to his cute sexie voice..

bahaha..

hono..goin to 5am soon..

i still not in the bed yet..
goodnites guys..

and ohya..

goodmorning!!

bad egg's day

2009-08-14T18:49:00.003+08:00

T.I.R.E.D.

just came back from the town..

been left the hse for 11 hrs..

n ohya..today was my little brother birthday..

my brother n i have been travel around the town with his superbike the whole afternoon..

it so damn cool yo..

so fucking cool..

the whole town was looking at us..

dont jealous k..

cant help with it..

coz we r born to be cool..

haha~ (thanks mom!!)again..happy birthday sei zai bao!!

dont be so naughty liao!!

escape

2009-08-12T02:42:00.004+08:00

Is there any one day..

we can no longer have to remember again to care about..

nonit to remember whose birthday,gift also did have to pack beautifully..

nonit to care about whose words to say was pleasant to hear coz basically couldn't understand..

nonit to believe all those reasons, too much bullshits spoilt the environment..

nonit to worry the dinner whether western food gruel hawker delivery or fast food..

nonit to worry about today where that person go,had to report police onot..

nonit to feed the pet,exile to the prairie to display the instinct..

nonit to be afraid you to say im quite stupid also wanted you to worry..

nonit to worry bout the pocket money remains in the wallet whether tomorrow able to smoke onot..

nonit to say fitted out pompously, bends the back bows hypocritically ties up the shoelace..

nonit tired has to rest also may go to the next door and chat with the neighbours..

nonit to make money supports oneself because we can try to find the way to go on living ourself..

nonit to escape the shatters expression, refrigerator not enough to lay aside the bad mood..

nonit to using the emotions to get first, although why three character primer does go strong abroad the competition..

dont have a problem only then dont have why there are so many matters could not finish resolve..

nonit to think how supposed to solve the problem because the solution is always a never-ending..

Good morning!

fell asleep yet too early or not?

occasionally, can only think about it.
tired has also been able to think therefore only then, but it does not matter.

well,blows off thinks other matter,

some things to think in eyes in sleep.

♥korean

2009-08-06T01:22:00.006+08:00

recently, im so addicted to

korean guys,

korean songs,

korean dramas,

korean languages..

its getting worst from before until i cant stop it..

dont ask me why..

they just attract me so darn much..

been learning korean lately..

freakin wanna travel to korea..

wish could migrate to korea..

no matter what ill make it happen..

i wanna make friends with korean..

wanna marry a good-looking korean guy..

my aim..^^

hahahahahahahahahaha

(evil laugh*)

listen to this korea song (now playing)..

my fav atm..

good luck

2009-08-01T13:59:00.005+08:00

when best friends were sat together..
it doesnt need to find any interesting topics to talk about..
been years we noe each others..
from schoolmate to teammate..
and from teammate to intimate..
sometimes..people do said we looks like twins..
this is how our friendship built..
the roots of the friendship have been grow strong deep under the ground..
good and bad, happy and sad moments we have been through..
we share everythings together..
we play together..
we sleep together..
we noe the privity well among us..
the atmosphere wont be dull even though just silent..
we noe what is the body languages tell..
coz our mind are great..
wish u all among the best there..
we always here to wait u back..
miss you,love you my twins..^^

Banglow

2009-08-01T01:50:00.011+08:00

just came back from Banglow..
small gathering with besties..
erm..can say a small farewell with baBy who going to s'pore this sunday..
me,bB,jac,exue,jiayun,endee n seechien..
4hours we spent there..eat drink chat..perhaps some "oxygen"..xP
the best part was the game, playing card..
it was called 'In Between'..dunno baBy said it..
each of us ante 10sen..but until the end there was bout 20-30 bucks..
each of us really enjoy the game..
especially when its came to our turn see who gonna take back all those money$$..
poor jac she lose her money the most..
n each of us seems like dividing her money..xD
marlboro ice mints was great..
shhh~and we finished the whole packet..
too bad its not available in malaysia..=\
anyway..here goes the pics we took..

with bB (mei)

jac+me n mei

exue+jac n mei

Ndee n yun

ND,chien,mei,yun

us♥

foc's haircut

2009-07-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

i just got my haircut..
stylist: baBy
venue: jiayun's hse (living room)
cool right? wahaha..
finally i can get rid off my previous messy hair..
but sometimes i still miss my fringe that i keep for 4months long..
and also the yellow-dyed part..=s

Bali

2009-07-30T01:24:00.012+08:00

just come back home..

went to bali cafe hang out with baBy,jac n yun..

im so pissed off with those mosquitos..
keep on attacked us like the emmagee..
make me feel so itchy and this really spoilt my mood..

what the heck!!

bloody mosquito..

i still cant stop scartching eventho i had bathed..

my skin is reddish now..

grr..itchy~

insubordinate

2009-07-27T12:21:00.006+08:00

said that wont drop any single tears for anyone again..

but why my cheeck is wet..?

i guess im failed from tough..

tears just wont listen to my order..

i just wanna keep my weakness to myself..

deep in my soul..

but why u weeping in reality..?

the last day of the SEM

2009-07-21T01:05:00.018+08:00

i can feel that i can fly up so high in the sky right after i pass up my last assignment..
no strees..no sleepless night..no burden..no worries..
this feeling was so good i can say..
free pizzas n camwhoring..
this is what we did in the room after busy for the whole day..(or i can say..the whole sem..haha)

well..u can see how free how lame n how free we are..
and i just so enjoy the moments..
after that we went to gurney kofuloft have our dinner..
actually is a celebrating replacement for eddie the gay birthday..
at nite..
zen decided to go sunset for shisha..
so..me..fish..cody..zen n mell in a car go together..
we gossip gossip gossip..
although no shisha that day..n this is quite sad for zen who come for it..
but we still able to have a great nite there..
and yeah~
i got my 1month holidays..
hooray~~

screamo

2009-07-18T03:15:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE FARK!!

tell u what..

FREAKIN TOTALLY EXACTLY TRULY DEFINATELY ABSOLUTELY

afraid of

LIZARD..

and i just stepped on one just now..

argh~

my leg~

zzzzzz

sad departure

2009-07-12T13:09:00.010+08:00

2 friends leaving again..

gotta get rid of the life without u guys

especially the small little one..

she teach me many things in every aspect..

she taught me the world..

every single words still clearly in my mind..

will never forget the care u gave..

i will take good care of myself,dont worry..

and you too..double take care of urself there..

will never forget you, i promise..

and for jen..dont go there ngao lou..
and i wont simply have one here..

forever urs ill be..haha..

both of u better take good care of each others..

always noe that there are someone who miss n worry bout u guys over here..

promise to be a top designer after this..

teach me someday on what u guys had learnt over there..

cant wait for u guys to come back..

miss you guys so darn much..

tsk tsk tsk..

sunset NITE

2009-07-10T01:13:00.036+08:00

tuesday,my sistas came to penang..

bB,laine,jiayun..

thn i went to jetty to pick them up, send them to hotel..

coz of i got many assignments to rush so i cant really join them..

haiz..

but the story was different on the next day..haha..XD

after finish my presentation..

after knowing that my deadline of packaging delay..

hooray~ i straight away call bB that i can join them after this..

haha..gonna blast the whole nites..

right after i done prepared,i wait them to pick me up..

thn the whole night we sticked together..

haha.. too many to write..

lets the picture do the talking..^^

mei n laine when arrived (jiayun cant wait for the hotel)

laine the pretty

mei the handsome

yun the fatty

they are just too excited

mei,me n my camera

camwhore in the hotel room

nonstop~

best pics of the day^^

the night at sunset

mei again

here comes chien the driver..haha

here goes laine the poser

the "thin" yun..eh..where is ur peace?

faster..the whole gang are waiting for u..

on the ride..

fei,chien n 7lou-lun

laine.mei.jee

with laine n jee

me n nana

seriously dunno what is this..haha XD

mei and me

and this is the whole gang..
all in black and white..

THE END

farewell

2009-07-06T05:25:00.003+08:00

today went for my friends small little farewell lunch..

just a small gathering actually..

coz the 2 fella gonna leave to NZ soon..

6 of us..me,fish,hwei,jen,teng,mang..^^

sat there for few hours..

chit chat like no one else beside..haha xD

at night,me n fish went to stay over night at wanhwei hse..

as im sitting in her room blogging now..winks*

what a "tofu" hse i can say..

3hree of us just like an owl..

talking talking talking the whole night till the morning..

argh..later gonna wake up early for dimsum..

get some sleep 1st..

3hree of us gonna squeeze into a queen side bed..

must be interesting..haha

hmm..goodnight thn..

opps..or i should say..

GOOD MORNING~

I belong to me..

2009-07-05T15:19:00.004+08:00

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you

It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to

And I won't give up me to be part of you

It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life

It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right

Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me

I complete myself

Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I gotta let you know before I let you in

That who I am is not about who I am with

That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you

I do

I don't need somebody to complete me

I want you to know

I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

I belong to me

I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby

abnormity

2009-06-29T12:02:00.002+08:00

went to college as usual today..

its been a long time never walk to college..

walk on the familiarity path..

imagine that ur presence when we walk to college together..
pass by 44 reminds me on u that u are no longer in pg..
sigh..
enter the college..
everythings was goin on their own way as usual..

but my feeling was like missing somethings..

without ur laughter n ur figure in the college..

cody..i started to miss u again..

the glum morning

2009-06-28T11:46:00.006+08:00

wake up from the call..
today weather was cloudiness..
is it also trying to present the feeling im having now?
reflecting the feeling in me knowing her besties had leaving?
the msg was been recieved in when 1028..
saying I'm in the car ad... Bye cecilia
so depressing looking this..
the whatever things happen in the midnight still clearly on my mind..
every single words of it..
well..im cant take any decision nor step..
coz i really dunno what to do..
im choosing to remain silent,a standard ans..
im not giving any ans u guys wanted i noe..
perhaps like what u said,wrong timing..
a new day with a sullen weather and a dismal feeling..
good morning everyone..

the departure

2009-06-28T02:08:00.006+08:00

this wasnt a good news to me..

besties are leaving one by one..

who's next?

how sad can it be?

my hun,cody is leaving today..

awh..am i crying?

no??maybe??

i noe u for 10months..

memories here n there..

and now its the time u leave for ur better future..

how i wish everyone will just stay like how it begin..

am i over demand?maybe..

but this is what we called life..

i cant stop it to happen..

i wanna tell u cody..

thanks for ur support along the way..
thanks for ur encourage when im down..
thanks for ur advice when im lost..
thanks for ur help when im stress..
thanks for ur guidance when im emo..

thanks for ur ears when i abreact..

thanks for ur cigaratte when im moody..

thanks for ur time when im lonely..

thanks for ur jokes when im bored..

thank you for everythings u did..
i really apperciate it..

for future wish u all among the best..

it is so hard for me to say goodbye..

i dont wanna say goodbye..

ill miss you so much my dear friend..

rmb to do ur gym everyday..

always rmb our aruose when we getting sloth..

we got the mission dude..haha xD

friendship never end friend..

keep in touch..

will miss u so darn much after this..T.T