oh FUCK!!

OH MY GOD

WHAT THE HELL

WHAT THE FUCK

WHAT THE HECK

ARGH~~

my LEG!!

it so darn fucking PAIN!!

OH GOSH

someone pls come and help me to cure my pain..

i cant stand it..

metamorphosis

One can only feel desolate for so long

until one starts to change

into something the mirror doesn't recognize I metamorphosize

clueless

today i suppose to have a peacefull day..

but things seem to not going on what i want it to be..

i went for gym just now..

and guess what?

i fall down from the trademill..

after the call, my mood was drop to the bottom..

i did anythings to express my feeling..

but it doesnt seem to work..

i guess this is not my way i used to abreact..

gym is not a good way for me..

my mind was keep on thinking..

why why why??

why there are still have someone got this kind of act?

i really dunno..dont even have a clue with it..

is there any wrong doing GYM with FRIENDS??

why is it sounds like im so wrong and you are quip at me..

and coz of this question make me fall down from the trademill..

What The Heck!!

hurt?

ya..it is hurt..

Not all scars show, Not all wounds heal

Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels

my Happy Birthday^^

yesterday was my birthday (01/06)
it also my 1st day of class after 1week sem break..
my family come here to penang celebrate with me..
they bring me to have my favourite pizzas..
hehe..
i like pizza so darn much..
after that we went gurney..
my mom bought me a bag from fourskin as a present..
i choose thn she pay..
hahahahaha..cool right?
after shopping..
they send me back home..
that's not the end yet..
after that..
i wait for my bestie,fish to come pick me up..
as she said,we are goin to have dinner..
only me n her..sounds romantiak right?
coz she told me that all the frens was not free this n that..=="
what a lame idea for suprising right?
but she said that she wont use such lame idea..not creative at all..
she said all was really not free..
all right thn~
she bring me to my favourite restaurant-OPERA..
awhh..how sweet she is..
when i step in..
ohno..the gang was sitting there..
thn i look at her.."u said u wont use such lame idea.."
she just laugh n ignore me..
haha..
we have our dinner there..
i like there so much..
thanks ya guys..
i really enjoy my 19th birthday..
here some pics to share..
enjoy~

OPERA

present from my mummy

present from best friends

lazy to post pics ad..

stay tune..

lonely.lost

im in my room now..

all alone..

feel so empty inside..

and i dunno what to do..

tons of assignment is pending there..

waiting for me to finish it up..

and i just dont have the mood to do it..

my blog..my emo dustbin..

and here i go..

in just two weeks time..

many things happened..

and i dunno what wrongs with me..

feel very weird..

i feel like i lost myself..

i means..my true self..

now i dont even noe who am i anymore..

i use to be very independent..i got my own tenet..

i do whatever things that i think is the best for me..

but now..

im too rely on you..i do whatever u want me too..

i tried my best to cooperate with you..just to make you happy..

i take ur problems become as my problems..

try to find the way how to help you out..

dont want you to think so much of that..worry bout that..

share your feeling whenever u want..

im tired..really tired..

its too much for me to care..

i got my own problems too..

but who knows?

i just simply dont like to tell others bout my things..

whatever things..i just keep in heart..

the pain i suffer..nobody noe..

i dont wan others to worry bout me..

i noe im big enough..i can handle all this myself..

u might think that why dont i share with you?

well..this is me..what to do?

the emo me..

im kinda lost right now..

just give me sometimesss to find back myself..

take this time to seek the deepest part of myself..

there still so many things that wait for me to discover..

i wanna try somethings that i never try before..

promise you that ill be more grow after all this..

happy birthday ♥ bB

Happy Birthday to my dearest bB..

my coolest sistas ever ^^

back after 1month+

i have been real busy for the past few week..

really dont have time to blog even though there are many things that im goin to share..

both sad and happy things happened in this few week..

not really gonna say everythings out..

too much to say if really wanna write out..

u guys must be feel very boring with it after this..haha

so..i slept at 6 this morning..

wake up at 930 and continue rushing for my assignment..

im so farkin tired..

i really wanna be unique and outstanding..

this is what i wan in my artwork and me myself also..

im trying my very best to work it out..sacrifice everythings..

but why u still cant see my effort my thinking that im trying to send?

can u just turn ur head around and see the others who freaking wanna get ur attention rather thn those whose u always praise for them?

argh..forget bout it..

anyway..i have overcome my stress i have this few days..

its finally over..wohoo..

its time for me to replace my sleep that i have sacrifice coz of my work..

im wanna sleep so much..

so..bye for now..

will blogging more often after this..

hehe^^

the sistas hangout

last friday i went back to my hometown just to meet my sistass..

i miss her so darn much..its been few months we dint meet each other..

owh..i really cant find any words to describe how much i miss her..haha

3days we spend our time for each others..

so much to talk..so much to share..

and we change a lotss in physically compare to last time..

but mentally still remians the same..^^

just sligthly change..hoho..

in these days..i really enjoy my time spending with you guys..

you guys are simply the best i ever have..

cheers~

we had took a lots of photossssss..

but i just post some of it..

teehee=3

lia♥jac♥mei

me♥bB


bB♥babyjac

babylia♥babyjac

♥us♥

limit

forgive got its limit..

keep on repeating the same thing,the same mistake but still ask for forgiveness..

really tired+disappointed..

and i really had enough of it..

the mistake u did hurt my heart..

tears show that im disappointed..

the again and again make me numb..

promises is mean to break..

and now i noe it..

never trust..

just to give my heart a guard..