my fate

Sometimes i just hate to be the eldest child in this family..

i always blaming why am i the one..?

and im so sick with things that been happened again and again..

enlightened me

if today is the end of the world..

nothing is important anymore right..?

so my problems will just turn into zero..

wont care on what had happened..

i just want myself to be happy..

your truth

i reject your reality and substitute it for my own..

i accept reality and dare not question it..

if i would ask, will you answer me frankly?

April fools

i tot i wont get prank anymore

coz i told myself i gotta beware on what they say to me..

coz its April fools..

and yet i fall in the trap once again..

lizard really make me act awkward..

special thanks to melliana and fishlong..

things change

things doesnt goes like what it used to be lately..

this feeling doesnt feel right to me at all..

izit everythings used to be change?

frankly, im disappointed..

disappointed on what i did..

am i expect too much?Obviously.

i wish i could be optimist..

but i couldnt in this situation..

please show me some cares..i seriously need it..

and i need you..

comprehending

i felt sorry and im guilty about it..
it's all totally my fault..
i have felt bad about what happened..
i knew im a mess,ruined everythings up..
frankly,im the one most dont want to see all this happen.I swear..
thanks for being honest and telling me the truth of ur feelings..
tears it doesnt matter..try my best to be a better one..=)

tolerancy

im not blaming you and please stop apologize to me..

you know i dont wan nothing but you..

im not demanding for you to be here with me..

perhaps, a respond to me which could make me feel safe and comfort is that hard?

i just want you to be there when i need you and its ok if you cant make it..

these had ruined my day and im really sick of all these..

my voice

this feeling is awesomely suck..
been abandoned by him again..
said u will always be by my side but where are you when i need you?
ur words just like a million knife that strike straight to my heart..
you never know how hurt is that to me especially when its from ur words..
you should noe that its all because of you..
but you never seems to care and it become my fault to have this mood in turn..
can you please take a few second to figure out what is on my mind? is that hard?
i found this is much more cruel to me than pretending..

shouldnt be so real coz no one will actually care about it..
depression why are you so loyal to me?

searching on going

im started to regret..

i've been seacrhing all around but end up disappointed..

i shouldnt hesitate at the 1st time..

can i turn back the time?

i wish i could..

miracle please happen on me..

i freaking need it but im tired..