Day20

I just wish I knew the truth

It wouldnt make anything better

but I would have that peace of mind

knowing that I didnt waste my time on you,

But if it is all lie that is ok too
because you have taught me a great lesson.

What if

What happens when the water runs away?

What happens when the sunlight starts to fade?

What happens when I love you comes to late?

What happens when you got no more to give?

What happens when there's nothing left to live for?

What happens when the one you love is not the one you're with?

What happens when your best is not enough?

What happens when your soul mate is already in love?

What happens when your lucky numbers wrong?

What happens when you lose someone you've always counted on?

What happens when it feels like life's just stringing you along?

How you meant to pick the pieces up?

No ones scared of flying, were just scared of crashing down

No ones scared of falling, were just scared to hit the ground

Even if your heart gets broke, you're stronger then you'll ever know

We don't need much, much of anything no

Just the hope of what tomorrow brings

Nothing last

Sometimes I cross my arms over my chest and press down real hard,

because it feels like I’m about to fall apart and I’m the only thing holding myself together

“Nothing ever last forever”

the truth that you leave

Didn't mean the things i said to you that night

baby, didn't think that you would say your last goodbye

couldn't just say sorry and admit it i know you were right

with my temper always flaring causing you and i

to be fighting over little stupid nothings every single day

now it's ended with you leaving stay away

All around me, silence, how'd we get this way

Thinking you'll be coming back, calling the next day

Baby i know that I'm treating you so bad, i wanna be good to you, and it's hard to do cause everyday and night I'm so mean cause I'm so real so I'm sorry

I know that you love me but i'm sorry i'm a bad girl

if you stay with me then, you will only see that, i can never be what you want

but Baby don't leave me, I know you still love me,

tell me what's wrong

Honestly, I need you

I'm standing right beside you always smiling

now i'm crying, gone and i'm alone, still thinking what went wrong

excuses that you're busy, and though you're feeling sorry,

with my wrangle, you just turn away

I dreamt that you would be my forever

now you're just a friend in life

breaking up it hurts a lot

so silence now, seems thats all we've got

Im not so tough, the inside of me's not,

so don't leave me hurt,

you've been the only and now you're all I've got,

Don't leave me babe, you're the only one who knows me,

Please babe come back to me.

sleepless thought I

Love is invaluable, it dont cost a thing.

dont think of whose love is more precious for the sacrifices make, it is incomparable.

love workout with 2 hearts, what you treat will comes in return.

if you really did, the one who receive will feel it involuntary.

imiss'em

These days made me realize how much I really miss my twins =(

and my triplets =(

dejected

Im just so utterly confused about everything that i dont even know what to do next.

i hate when im indecisive, because then i feel like i don’t know who i am because i don’t know what i want.

Indecisive

Thinking about the future is something that has always frightened me.

perhaps it is one of the reasons why i've always been so drawn to procrastination, putting things off, and telling myself that i will do them later.

i have gone so far as to make it a daily habit; to avoid the idea of the future as much as i possibly could.

it may just be a revelation that i’ve had lately, especially with the direction that my life has been taking during these past 3 years,

but i’ve decided that i cant avoid the future forever.

i have to start somewhere, finally deciding on what i need and where i want to go.

i have a strong feeling that ill have a lot of very important decisions to make during the next few months.

live life

you can say what you want..

but i want to live moment to moment..

our brains are always regretting and guiding us one way because of the past..

our past mistakes, our past choices, and on and on..

our brains are always looking towards the future..

the future that holds so much promise, and hope, and a better tomorrow..

but our bodies are stuck in the now, the N-O-fucking-W..

no matter how much our minds wander, don’t matter..

that’s why i’m going to try to coincide my mind with the body, and live moment to moment

i’m not going to disregard the consequences, past mistakes…

but i’m going to just live life better by fully enjoying the moment i have.