happy is wanted

between the lies and jokes..

which is the best to make things looks beautiful..?
im having a hard time to take one of it..
i smile like nothings wrong, but the paths i gone through no one will know perhaps..
saying "im fine" is always a common lies..
i really fed up of pretending myself..
how i wish i could tell "im not fine" boldly..
always wanted be a tough one or something like cold blooded being more than a weak nor fragile one..
always blaming myself wasn’t done perfectly in life..
in fact, i was a very extreme person..
have my days happy is my motto..